How's life? It has been quite some time since we caught up but don't worry, at the right moment in time we will have a tete-a-tete over some tea. I promised to write to you when I landed but things have passed by so fast and the bonds that I created on our behalf held me busy sometimes but, the time is now at least.
I remember us talking about how life would be when we join the first year of Pharm school. You kept giving me hope and raising my expectations. I can't deny, I was a bit scared because I didn't know what to expect and imposter syndrome was winning for a moment then.
The first year, wow! It wasn't as bad as I thought, everything started out smoothly and when I got the hang of it you decided to give me some space. Hey expectations mate, why did you do that? No bad blood though, later on, it made sense why you created the distance. You needed me to learn to survive. The space made me meet new faces for us to befriend, a challenge we always knew we would experience but hey, what is a challenge if it can't be conquered. The friendships played a vital role in our academic re-genesis, but the bonds did not remain in the chemistry books alone, haha!
The units were not that bad, the classes were also exciting, and the new stuff gave a spark in this lifelong journey and also brightened our neurons. When I look back it seems like time really flew by but back then time seemed to move slowly maybe because of all the hustle and work that we had to do and events that we had to attend.
A lot happened between then and now: pandemics(the most insane thing that happened and we didn't see it coming), a lot of papers, new skills, new faces, new places, sadness, happiness and disappointments( that's when in I wished you popped in for some reassurance at least) but hey, we made it and still alive and healthy.
It's been 4 years now, and most of the mates we set the journey with are done but we wanted to last longer here, hehe! Does it really end though? Many skills to acquire in the field and specialise in await us, the future is kinda bleak and vague. Many challenges to graduation and internship period, some bureaucratic and some the usual challenges of life: it is what it is.
So, expectations, I hope to hear from you more often. Don't come in big because when we fail to deliver this anatomic organ in the chest has some weird paces and the organ in the skull creates some weird scenarios that refuse to leave. But also, don't come in very lowly, It bears a disappointing picture though on the other side it makes us be prepared.
Say hello to our pals Hope, faith, love and chaos. Tell hope and faith I usually hear their voices sometimes when they are around our mutual friends and I would sometimes want to catch up with them. For love, I have seen beautiful souls and faces, faces that visit my mind impromptu and make me wonder a lot. These faces have also made me pen down a lot of pieces that you will read soon enough and also, they make me wonder if I will meet my Bonnie or Jill here. Chaos, tell him he can try and live together with peace because I feel him breaking under my skin and diving too deep trying to break us apart.
I hope to bring the papers home in the few months to come, that is a promise I make. Remember, I hope to hear from you soon even though sometimes sirens sing so perfectly and they get the hold of us.
Cheers mate.
Yours, Pensive
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